Random Thought Bubbles

Ramblings on of someone still finding the way

I'm in Auckland! If you didn't already know =P The flight was a wee bit scary because the plane weaved from side to side a little during take off and dipped quite a bit during the descent for landing. It was about 10hrs and since I've taken ktms to Singapore from KL it doesn't seem like a very long time. And contrary to me being fidgety, I can actually sit in a chair for long periods of time without getting out of it.

I'm getting ahead of myself.

The airport bit was stressful because the counter people were very strict with the weight limitation. 30kg... I was 6kg overweight at first. Took out some stuff and we were 1.8kg overweight. The man behind the counter was not only very brisk and short with us but he was also quite rude. It's not as if I don't understand him. B-lardy hell. So I ended up checking in later and getting a middle seat... the nice lady let me through with 1.1kg overweight. Sheesh... and she told me that I was passenger 198... yep... so that's that.

I ended up sitting among a group of Dutch tourists. I had a laptop, a very heavy and full backpack and one draggy luggage thingy. I didn't weigh them but they must've been close to 25kg altogether. Crazy carrying them I tell you. Sure sweat and sure muscle ache. Stress when putting everything in the overhead compartment because I was afraid of dropping it on some poor fella's head. I kept apologizing and excuse me-ing because it seemed like I was in everyone's way. haha! And one should declare ivory. It's an animal stuff it says on the arrival card. The arrival card is also in colour... haha... unnecessary =P
It also says to declare objectionable (indecent) articles - why can't they just write pornography?

All through the flight I had bouts of teariness and bouts of being extremely sad. I still don't quite know exactly what I was sad about because at the moment I'm fine. All I know was that I was watching 'The Last Kiss' (new movie with the guy from Scrubs in it) and suddenly I am overwhelmed with the blues. No bawling, of course, there were too many strangers with strange tongues around. The movie's pretty good though. You know what's another good movie? High Fidelity.

Detached sentences. I think I'm still a little woozy from being on the plane for so long.

I couldn't sleep so I had 2 glasses of white wine. It was actually quite good. Slept for a bit after that then suddenly we here. Amazing this thing called air travel.

Some pictures =)




Arrival Hall - We waited around quite long for Man Keat who got searched =(





This is the airport =)



The whole bunch of us pushing our carts to the bus

Timothy in front of the bus - people always stop for zebra crossings here =)




Must mengada and take photo at every chance you get k? We're young and wrinkle-free only once =) (unless you pay for a face-lift=P)


In ze bus

I must take one of myself obviously =P

This is my room at the moment. I twin-share but I don't have a room-mate at the moment so I've got a big room all to myself =P

This is the other side of the room where I put my laptop and where the window is

And this is what's outside my window =)

The weather's kinda nice when it's windy. It's like being in an air-con place all the time. I guess like Genting lah. Not super cold when windy. But without the wind the hot's about the same as KL. Haha! So yep, shorts and spaghetti straps for me!

I'm off to bed. My head's doing funny woozy swirls while I type this sentence. Missing everyone loads!! =)

i'm afraid...

i'm leaving too many people/places/things behind...

sigh...


a motorcycle ride on a green-lined road...

I was checking my mail just now and I have this email from one of the consultants who'll be heading our anaesthesia rotation. The further I read along the more it felt as if I was getting myself into a whole lot of trouble because honestly I've forgotten almost everything I've learnt at IMU these 2.5 years. Like everything. Like... yeah... =( oh no... and I couldn't get my lazy ass to study anything. Even though I had all the time in the world. Again, why do we always procrastinate so.

My parents are coming in today... I still haven't got the books I wanted to get... I'm so totally out of my league. Die la!! How?!?!

Stress levels at the moment - Orange, brimming over to red soon. Probably when I land in Auckland and when everything really starts. Oh no...

Die la die la die la....

I'm so gonna get pummelled and cry my eyes swollen goldfish like and look like the blur sotong that I am.

Off to Auckland on Sunday... new place, new scary things to be scared about. AHHHH!!!!

The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?

Jeremiah 17:9


I had a small gathering thingy at my brother's place on my birthday at the beginning of this month. Things have been pretty laid-back and altogether procastinating behaviour inducing so I haven't actually blogged about it at all. Ling Wei posted some pictures on the mass birthday clubbing session at maison on kecohppl though that some pictures of us there. I'll miss clubbing with them... sigh... another thing to leave behind for the time being.

Just another themed party (punk rock this time) but because our group has slowly dwindled down ,it was relatively tame, although everyone seems to have taken to cam-whoring lately... which resulted in a whole lot of poser shots... hehe =)

Not too much in the mood of writing it up but it was a good birthday =)

All 3 jackets are mine =)


Queen Jebbo and AlcoMe


Ling Wei - The only one noticing I'm taking a picture


Punk Rock Baby!


No party is complete without some bottles and some cups and friends


When we finally got sick of mengada-ing


All the girls at the party (minus Jeb who came later)


Brandon Star

Semangat leh! Ling Wei, Bran and Racine painted their nails black to match the theme


And this is THE picture of the party - Elf Gowri (haha!)

The rest of the pictures are in my Flickr so click on over there for more =) Gosh, I'll miss all this when I'm over in Auckland...

In a few days I'll be in Auckland. I'm usually game for new places because I like the idea of a place that hasn't been imprinted with any memories. Clean slate, that kind of thing. But yesterday it suddenly dawned on me that I was actually afraid of going. There is a certain sense of daunting, of doubt that I'll be happy there. This is something strange because I love new experiences... be they good or bad. I always look back upon them as stories to tell and re-tell again later on because what is life but a series of experiences.

I've only been in KL for give or take 3 years but I've come to regard it as more of home than good ol' Brunei. This place that is not really home but home. I dread leaving. This does not bode well. *emo emo emo*

So my visa's been done (that in itself is a story... I went with 4 juniors to Singapore to get one sticker stuck in my passport that I may be granted passage into Auckland, that land as yet so stranger to me, and in the return journey we missed the ktm we were supposed to take because everyone took to leisurely strolling about after we'd gotten our visas. We spent all in all about 5-6hrs in Singapore. It was like taking a train to Singapore to eat lunch. =P So we ended up taking the bus back... it was awfully silly but yep... experiences... at least I got to buy nice brownies) and my bags are more or less packed, I've got a place to stay and I've more or less got everything I need... except maybe everyone in kecohppl... but there's always the internet...

Sigh... so many things to leave behind.

This is the problem with becoming emotionally attached to anything. Sometimes I wonder why I allow myself to be so completely immersed in a place, an emotion, a being, a moment. There is just too much room for disappointment, unexpected jerks of disruption, endings, sadness. But I do it nonetheless, all the while convincing myself that the downside never outweighs the upside. There cannot be happiness without sadness, no? No one would be able to tell the difference without the other. I'm babbling... I leave on the 28th of Jan... 9 something at night... should be at the airport round 6 plus... sigh...

I'm just sad to be leaving here.


My drinking partner and me

What's left of us (minus Gowri) went to send off Jeb, Kai and Bryan off. The getting there and saying hi and bye was so quick for Jeb and Kai that I hardly felt anything aside from a slight tugging at the back of my heart because our group is getting yet again smaller as the days go by. Ms. Jebbrine and Mr. Sheng Kai both had overly heavy luggage so each had to remove items from their well-packed suitcases. Jebbrine is, sadly, to do without shampoo and a bunch of other toiletries (she's left with one tube of toothpaste... at least there's that... haha!) I don't know what happened with Kai's stuff but he was only 3kg over and the mean pig behind the counter didn't let him through... that's rubbish.

We saw Jeb first =)

Looks like Oxford Clinical Handbook is Jeb's as her going away present... I dunno... *shrug* it is useful =)



Then we met Kai at McD... Kah Heng was at Burger King... he didn't actually see Sheng Kai off in the end... =P

There were family goodbyes and tears... As we watched Jeb and Kai go slowly down the escalator (I really do think they make those escalators snail rate slow for the express purpose of adding dramatic effect for farewells) Ling Wei finally banjir'ed a bit post Jeb/Kai farewell. Improvement from when Amelia and Lina (SeeLaw... haha) left when one crying Samantha gave way to a waterfall effect of crying girls. The only thing left to do then was to sit around and wait for Mr. I need to take the night flight Bryan to make his way to the airport to board his flight.


And while we were at Burger King... Brandon met someone who made him feel small.

We couldn't reach Bryan all afternoon and finally when he did call back he didn't even know we were going to be there. Haha! He got a new haircut (at A Cut Above where he not only got a haircut but also got conned into buying OSIS clay, not because he needs it but because the person persuaded him to... slave to advertising I see... haha!) and a new necklace with three rings interlaced as a pendant.


Trying to do one of those 'pro-candid' shots. Candid shot try #1 Wannabe photographer lah =P

The note Kah Heng is holding up is our make-do voucher redeemable for one belated birthday present... we haven't gotten Bry his birthday present yet... eeps! O_o So cheapo... hehe!

B/W candid shot try #2


We all got ice-cream because he felt bad for making us wait around =) well you didn't need to, Bryan, we were there because we wanted to send you off, silly =) We took the usual group and solo photos and his mom made the comment of him not even taking picture with her so we took picture for them... haha... so Auntie Jenny shall be sent photos by one of us =) Then when I thought it was safe to go back without tears, I banjir hugging him, just before he got onto that slow slow farewell escalator. WAAAAAA!!! My drinking buddy's going off to Adelaide! That suddenly hit me. So strange... I really didn't expect it. Anyway, aku banjir then Ling Wei pulak banjir haha... she's so prone to crying on witnessing other people crying =P

This is Bryan and his mom and if you squint you can see his ring pendant

Then we all went home to Seremban. Really... the Bukit Jalil/Subang people didn't take a left turn and ended up in Seremban... Then went all the way back to KL again... hahah...

(I've been trying to post this up for ages but the kecohppl blog is still in old blogger and none of the pictures ever add... EESSH! So it shall be here =P)

Nasioncom sucks... I lost the post I did before for this. But no matter, this post is dedicated to Ling Tze, who's been my best pal since Form 3. That's a pretty long time =) We didn't get to spend all the time in the world together before I left for KL but ya well, I do come from Brunei and I'll be back before she knows it =) There's nothing much to do in Brunei, aside from attempting to window shop (but without having many places to window shop at), shisha and opening laptops at cafes, so we went to take pictures at a christmas display thingy outside the toyota/lexus car showroom. They have displays up every christmas, hari raya and chinese new year and apparently they're very expensive displays. I wouldn't know *shrug* but they are big. I know Christmas is long over but I'm posting the pictures anyway =P


So this is the whole thing =)

This is as far as two people can take pictures of themselves =P

Notice the sign =P

After a while of trying very hard to pose with christmas displays, we start posing in front of lexus cars

Seriously it was too early in the morning for antics

Apparently a bunch of drunk angmohs vandalized the display on christmas eve. haha. stupid fellas. They had to pay the fine and put the stuff back in place


MUACK! with a poor pupil-less reindeer

It was the day I was leaving from KL and she'd slept over and we woke up to a sunny sunny 9am (at a time when I'd gotten used to waking up after everyone else had had lunch and probably dessert and tea too but since I was leaving memanglah saya patut berbuat demikian... otherwise we'd miss taking photos at the place again like the last time >_<) That would explain me looking blur. And taking photos of a big display including two people but only having either of the two people take the said photos is difficult. But we managed as best we could. It would probably have been nicer if we took the photos at night... but ya well... maybe going to a place just to take pictures with it is a teeny bit jakun but that's about the same as dreaming of travelling the world and taking pictures of that... it's just on a different level =)
Hope you're doing better...

Happy New Year Everyone! So I'm back in KL and man is it good to be back =) It also means clubbing for my birthday! Got kaki, got venue, got reason for par-tay! And everyone's finally of age which is excellent! There's no place like KL =) Sounds like Dorothy and her shoes... and speaking of shoes... I have a new pair =) As soon as I saw them I had to have them. This is my first pair of extremely red shoes. I got them at a department store in Brunei where I never thought I'd ever find anything interesting. They remind me of parade band uniforms.

Red Shoes.... MmmmMmmMMmm ;)

I picked 10 pairs of shoes to bring over. I got all my stuff for Auckland all pack this time because I'm leaving from here. I could only bring 8 pairs because there wasn't enough room for my 2 pairs of boots. Haha! Shoessss... so my mom'll bring my other two pairs when she comes to see me off when I fly off end of Jan =) Finally can wear boots without appearing to be a wannabe =P

I'm quite excited for my birthday! Mostly because I didn't think I'd be able to celebrate it here any time soon. Kecohppl rawk! No matter what. The only bad part about this coming birthday is turning 22... it feels so foreign, that number... twenty-two... 2-2... I'm just dreading the day I turn 29 when I realize the twenty-something period just sped by without my noticing and without me actually achieving anything of worth. Sigh... growing old can be somewhat depressing =P

Many thanks to Ling Tze for the earliest birthday present given =) I love it and use it obviously! Pictures of our Christmas display mengadaness will be up in the next post. And look out for birthday pics soon =) Thursday clubbing outting k! Hop till we drop! Looking forward to that =))