that's a lot of posts =)
was just watching the first episode of the first season of grey's anatomy. i find it strange i actually learn mnemonics from these tv shows. i learnt the wrist bones from scrubs and now the post-op fever causes one too. haha. wind (atelectasis), water (uti), wound (infection), walk (dvt/pe), wonder drugs (drug-induced). silly, ain't it? i've finally started studying. dermatology baby. haha. lots of papules, macules, pustules, and assorted rashes.
just felt like blogging. don't really have anything to blog about really. i'm not going back end of this year. funny how when i say i'm not going back i really mean kl rather than brunei. isn't home supposed to be the place where you grew up? i guess i grew up in kl. and just grew older in brunei. and it's sad but i've grown too far apart from my friends in brunei. although with some i can still go have coffee with and catch up even though we don't talk to each other for ages. that's good right?
i find nowadays that i'm constantly just searching for a human connection. sitting in a small room cooped up with a laptop and a progressively enlarging mess is one of the most depressing things in the world. albeit the technological miracle of the internet. e-mails and chatting just ain't the same as having a coffee or going out. i didn't need to state that... obvious. oooo lots of psychobabbling going on.
yes, back to the human connection. most days i miss having someone to love. there i said it. doesn't mean i'll go out and pick the first guy off the road but i do miss the feeling. everyone says but you have family and friends. love them. but it's really not the same, is it? then there comes the astronomically big question of does anyone really know what love is in the first place? do i know what it is? i like to think i finally do after all the mess i made... but the concept keeps changing and there are so many variables it becomes too complicated. so we fall back on quotes. quotes like 'love the one you're with', 'if you love him let him go', bla bla bla and then the one from the bible. i think the bible one's the closest to even defining it.
when i picture where i'm going now, the scene's a long promising road on a sunny day that's not too hot. isn't it funny how it's always a road analogy? we're all on a journey. and i'm being unusually optimistic nowadays. positive steps for positive outcomes. am having more good days than bad. good, no? for the girl who was chronically sad. and i do stress the was.
have good days everyone =) it pays to be happy =D and i babble so hee hee!
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