Random Thought Bubbles

feeling strange today. feel like i'm not really here. not completely opaque...

i wish i hadn't made a mistake. but the mistake accentuates the need to change because i haven't quite been fixed. if i hadn't made the mistake that would mean i hadn't been upset with the whole thing and that would mean i was completely happy and satisfied. but i wasn't and i was upset and i did make a mistake because i let myself because i'm just that sick. and every internal ingrained flaw i have to rub out. they keep getting in my way. and i keep letting them.

screw this. i'm talking in circles.

back to hospital and back to that semblance of order. i like having work to do. it keeps my mind off everything.

i miss having some place i feel is home.